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| Holographic Painting 2011 by a. siqueiros |
As an artist you know we can find our selves feeling rather lonely. We are like that of a metaphor for being like our own Island. Yes we have those around us like-minded and can enjoy their company. But truly I find it to be a very lonely place of lack of physical contact. We spend hours upon days of being absorbed in to another realm of creation where time is only measured by night and daylight. And compromise the things that we want to do with promoting our works of art.
Being a prolific artist entangled with demands of every day common needs that everyone has to deal with is exhausting to say the lest. We work all the time our minds rarely rests even when we are asleep. I drift in to state of mind of visualizing new concepts of creations. It is there that I play with out any physical labor when I sleep. Always surrounded with my dogs that were rescued by me. They keep me secure with all my insecurities I battle day after day. Always questioning always seeking the answers why, how, when, how much, when do I except my accomplishments etc the list is endless. I can be my own worst enemy too easy to give up lay down my pen, my brush, and my self.
It is a fight and a blessing at the same time to be an artist to go where no ones been before and the eagerness and drive to physically bring it in to fruition. To want to share it with the world and to be excepted not for fame but validation of being able to be apart of creation and ever lasting breathing force that will continue to exist beyond even the artist them selves. Being a true Artist is being true to ones works weather it is on its own or with others who are involved. When I am not true to my works my works are not true to be.
A.Siqueiros July 20, 2011
